.بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
There is beauty in breaking.
The graceful allowance of slip from hand: frictionless. Gravity. And crash, go so many little pieces, into:
so many little pieces.
It is difficult, in the depths of midnight: the stillness, the seeming absence of sun…
To even begin to think, sometimes, that this same sky: will become lighter. And hues of purple, maybe. And then lighter blues. And lighter, and lighter, until:
Pinks, and oranges, and yellows.
There is much beauty to be found in breaking:
Bread, betwixt friends. Or, between strangers between whom: that distance will break, into mutual comfort, and understanding.
Friendships: break too, sometimes. There is goodness, even, in these breakages. In the moment:
Your mind might feel, teetering on the edge, on the brink: of ‘breaking’. Your heart: has it felt broken before too?
A sense of self, scattered-feeling. Maybe: only for something new to come into place.
Al-Hakeem: the Wise. Ar-Razzaq, the Ultimate Provider. Al-Qadeer: the All-Powerful.
Your Lord Says:
وَٱلَّيْلِ إِذَا سَجَىٰ
مَا وَدَّعَكَ رَبُّكَ وَمَا قَلَىٰ
وَلَلْءَاخِرَةُ خَيْرٌ لَّكَ مِنَ ٱلْأُولَ
وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَىٰٓ
أَلَمْ يَجِدْكَ يَتِيمًا فَـَٔاوَىٰ
وَوَجَدَكَ ضَآلًّا فَهَدَىٰ
وَوَجَدَكَ عَآئِلًا فَأَغْنَىٰ
فَأَمَّا ٱلْيَتِيمَ فَلَا تَقْهَرْ
وَأَمَّا ٱلسَّآئِلَ فَلَا تَنْهَرْ
.وَأَمَّا بِنِعْمَةِ رَبِّكَ فَحَدِّثْ
— Surah Duha (The Morning Brightness), Qur’an (93).
“By the morning brightness,
And [by] the night when it covers with darkness,
Your Lord has not taken leave of you, and nor has He detested [you].
And the Hereafter is better for you than the first [life].
And your Lord is going to give you, and you will be satisfied.
Did He not find you an orphan and give [you] refuge?
And He found you lost and guided [you],
And He found you poor and made [you] self-sufficient.
So as for the orphan, do not oppress [him].
And as for the petitioner [one who asks, e.g. for money], do not repel [him].
But as for the favour[s] of your Lord, report [them].”
Things may well break, and night may well fall. Heavy. Curtains.
But a breaking is not necessarily, entirely, an ‘ending’. A close to one thing: night. Time. And: the entering of another: day.
Do you feel broken, or like you are breaking, or on the very verge of breakage? But:
Your Lord has not detested you, and nor has He left you alone.
What is coming for you is better than what has gone. Rays of sun, piercing through the sky: you are not alone. Heavy, and sad, and in distress, but know that relief is near.
Have you not felt lost before? And breaking, and/or broken?
Remember your Lord’s favours onto you, from times before.
Did He not find you lost, and then guide you?
Did He not provide for you, in astonishing and wonderfully kind ways, in all those times before?
Will He not provide for you in these ways again?
So, we try to be kind to other people. Others are in worse situations than we, and gratitude can be well-fostered through helping, using what we have been given, those with less than us.
As for the blessings that Allah has given us: we speak them.
[On the first day of Ramadan this year: approximately two hours before breaking fast…
My little brother decided to come and thoroughly annoy me. He said he really enjoys making me angry. And, ordinarily, I can physically pick up this little boy. But this time: I felt physically weak. Muscles, a lack of glucose…
Saif, however, at this time, had (seemingly high levels of) physical energy: he’s nine years old, and does not fast yet.
He didn’t cease from his (extreme) little-brotherly harassing me until… I eventually promised to buy him a pack of football cards. So first I get attacked. And then I had to pay for my own release. So:
Saif 2, Sadia nil.
Later, while eating, Saif decided to stab at the chicken bone on his plate several times. Why?
To make sure it’s really dead.
Having a little brother can be… something, all right. But I would not, could not, have it any other way. To use the language of football cards: I would not trade this child for the world.
For all such gifts that Allah has given us (and for the ability to eventually regain physical strength through being blessed enough to be able to have and enjoy a variety of foods):